Anybody understand drama cuz i dont?

i just left my school and all my friends and im in the 7th grade. my mom is very strict and is making it impossible for my friends and i to hang out unless they come to our house but we live 10 miles away and i can only have one over but there are pairs of 2 in all of our groups, my best friend isn't aloud in my house, and all my other friends basically are never out of the pair, and on top of it my mom's wife (yes shes lez) hates me as do i. and now out of nowhere ill start balling my eyes out. i promise im not a drama queen but i don't know why i cry over everything and i need to stop because im not aloud to cry that much my step mom yells at me about it. how can i get myself to stop crying.